From Sunset to Reset

Last week was horrible.

Last week was backwards when I was frontwards; up when I was down; even drove past me a few times.

Last week was probably the most emotional week I have had in recent memory; the last week like this was quite possibly over a year ago when my Mother left this God-forsaken hell of a planet. Heaven has got to be better than this.

I have been sleeping fine; the problem comes when I awake.  Mind Racing; running; swimming. it's in good shape because it didn't have to stop and rest. Or to take a breath.  My Monday was fine; Tuesday became Wednesday in a hurry, and rescheduled regular lunch on Tuesday to Wednesday for a meeting on Tuesday that was really on Wendnesday, and I had tried to Push Reset while downtown on Tuesday.

Then, my regular Tuesday lunch appointmentee was gracious enough to have lunch early Wednesday (since my fake Tuesday meeting was really Wednesday). Well, no problem there, I think...except my mind spouted a drain out my mouth, and was told by my friend that she had 'never seen me this scatterbrained.'.

No kidding.  I was already aware before she told me.  The reset button I pounded on Tuesday hadn't reset yet.  But spouting a bit did reveal that, quite possibly, every emotional factor in my life (ignored or otherwise) decided to hit me all at one time.  Something about my Sister grieving for me, but now she's not here, and is that it?  Have I the need to grieve for Mother on my own now that Sister is gone?  Naw, must simply be the fact that I might have to come out of retirement earlier than planned. Unless I learn how to grow money really soon.  Might be one of those or the other six things on my mind. 

Thursday I spent all day (except lunch) with my friend Shirley, who is becoming needier and needier; decided she shouldn't drive anymore but "needs" to;  mentioned she was out of her anti-depressant 'yesterday'; can't remember in HEB where the deli counter is;  and, happens to love saying, "Where is my (insert whatever here) while moving (insert whatever here) out of the way to look for (insert whatever here)....hmmm.  I was hoping to reset Thursday night.

Thursday night brought movie night, since I had plans to leave town Friday to see my girl.  So, we picked the movie I acquired at a re-gift party:   The Chaos Experiment.

Well.  Let me share a few words from a reviewer of this wonderful flick starring Val Kilmer:

And I Quote:

"There are bad movies. There are stupid movies. There are shitty movies. There are awful movies. And there is Philippe Martinez’s THE CHAOS EXPERIMENT, which is an awful shitty, awful stupid, awful bad movie."

I cannot tell you how much of a "Homerun, Pay Station, Grand Slam, Going Yard, Four-Bagger, Ding-Dong, Touch-Em-All, Round Tripper, Long Ball" that one paragraph does to describe this movie.  Just absolutely horrible. 

However;  I had some friends over, and we had a great time picking out the terrible screenplay, worse acting, negligent lighting, absence of plot, total absence of the need for killing, not to mention the ending:

And I quote:

"I’m not going to spoil it for anyone who is a glutton for film punishment like I am. Just think of a predictable ending for a story ..... the kind that would make you laugh out loud if it happened. Take that idea, make it huff lead paint as a child, hit it over the head with a sledgehammer and then have it take a calculus test. "

Was probably the worst movie I have sat through.  Did I Say Movie? I meant crap.  But, friends make life better, and we suffered through it together.  Was a good time nonetheless.  End of Thursday.

I thought that maybe the curse was over; my punishment was over; however, on the way out of town, a friend called for lunch, so we picked a spot on my route out of town to meet.  And I drove right by it.  Ten minutes later I realized it and had to turn around.

It was probably a good thing, though.  Allowed me to slow down a bit.  After a great lunch, I continued on my great weekend with my girl.  We watched a lot of the Olympics and some Nascar. Saw a few friends, including Dad.

I left from Dad's mid afternoon today, and drove down IH45 for the first time in awhile, passed Stupid followed by Idiot with some Dumbass mixed in here and there; decided to take the shortcut (adds 20 miles) through the forest across Lake Conroe and saw this:

I will take this as a sign for a new attitude opportunity ahead.  I'll take the sunset and begin anew tomorrow.  It's time to begin again.  Maybe the Reset worked this time.